Perfection
š¶ Read while listening to: āRhiannon Bannenberg - For Stormboyā š¶
Lately I hate perfection.
I hate the idea of a perfect love, a perfect partner, a perfect romantic life.
I donāt think that even exists. Maybe thereās a perfect second, but thereās not even a perfect minute.
I think perfection is making us unhappy.
I think the āsearch of perfectionā is just the way our fears mask out. Because itās not that we are using perfection to make us better, to make us choose better. We are using the āunperfectā as an excuse, itās easier to not open up, to not risk our emotions. We are scared of feeling too much, we just want to feel a little piece. Thatās why SHE IS NEVER perfect. Thatās why HE IS NEVER perfect āfor youā.
We canāt handle perfect. It makes too scared.
Thatās why we settle with the perfectly boring-safe-and-known person that just lingers, and share some time, and share some space, and give us some warmth to our little cold bodies.
Thatās why I hate perfection. Thatās why Iām searching for that unperfect girl with the crooked smile and the freckle in the wrong place. The one that has her mind in the space and her love misplaced.
I want you.
The one smiling while sheās reading this...
The girl with an imperfect life that feels confused.
I want you.
Not to fix you, not to brake you.
Just to love... your imperfection.
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